- 1:42 pm - Fri, Jan 27, 2012
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Paid
Today something very significant happened; I got my first payment from Amazon/Kindle Digital Publishing. Note: it takes a long time to get paid for your ebook sales, like three months. I’m still waiting for my B&N money.
I’ve certainly been paid for my writing before, but it was mostly tiny amounts. $50, maybe, with little residual checks here and there. This is the first time I’ve gotten a significant amount of money for my writing and it does a lot to validate things for me. It’s not that money is the end all be all of validation, but it is something real and quantifiable that says my work is paying off. It also allows me to keep working and to work harder.
So I went out into the rainy city a little happier this morning. My coffee tasted better having been bought with “writer money.” This weekend I hope to publish the first of what will be twelve new ebooks in 2012.
Wish me luck. I’m going to need it.
- 12:14 pm - Thu, Jan 19, 2012
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The only thing I see is the bruise on her shoulder. I’m guessing it has a much better story than the tattoo.
(Source: fuckyeahtattoos, via vyvyan25)
- 6:40 pm - Wed, Jan 18, 2012
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INTERNETS, 18th of January 2012. PRESS RELEASE, FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE.
Over a century ago Thomas Edison got the patent for a device which would “do for the eye what the phonograph does for the ear”. He called it the Kinetoscope. He was not only amongst the first to record video, he was also the first person to own the copyright to a motion picture.
Because of Edisons patents for the motion pictures it was close to financially impossible to create motion pictures in the North american east coast. The movie studios therefor relocated to California, and founded what we today call Hollywood. The reason was mostly because there was no patent. There was also no copyright to speak of, so the studios could copy old stories and make movies out of them - like Fantasia, one of Disneys biggest hits ever.
So, the whole basis of this industry, that today is screaming about losing control over immaterial rights, is that they circumvented immaterial rights. They copied (or put in their terminology: “stole”) other peoples creative works, without paying for it. They did it in order to make a huge profit. Today, they’re all successful and most of the studios are on the Fortune 500 list of the richest companies in the world. Congratulations - it’s all based on being able to re-use other peoples creative works. And today they hold the rights to what other people create. If you want to get something released, you have to abide to their rules. The ones they created after circumventing other peoples rules.
The reason they are always complainting about “pirates” today is simple. We’ve done what they did. We circumvented the rules they created and created our own. We crushed their monopoly by giving people something more efficient. We allow people to have direct communication between eachother, circumventing the profitable middle man, that in some cases take over 107% of the profits (yes, you pay to work for them). It’s all based on the fact that we’re competition. We’ve proven that their existance in their current form is no longer needed. We’re just better than they are.
And the funny part is that our rules are very similar to the founding ideas of the USA. We fight for freedom of speech. We see all people as equal. We believe that the public, not the elite, should rule the nation. We believe that laws should be created to serve the public, not the rich corporations.
The Pirate Bay is truly an international community. The team is spread all over the globe - but we’ve stayed out of the USA. We have Swedish roots and a swedish friend said this: The word SOPA means “trash” in Swedish. The word PIPA means “a pipe” in Swedish. This is of course not a coincidence. They want to make the internet inte a one way pipe, with them at the top, shoving trash through the pipe down to the rest of us obedient consumers. The public opinion on this matter is clear. Ask anyone on the street and you’ll learn that noone wants to be fed with trash. Why the US government want the american people to be fed with trash is beyond our imagination but we hope that you will stop them, before we all drown.
SOPA can’t do anything to stop TPB. Worst case we’ll change top level domain from our current .org to one of the hundreds of other names that we already also use. In countries where TPB is blocked, China and Saudi Arabia springs to mind, they block hundreds of our domain names. And did it work? Not really. To fix the “problem of piracy” one should go to the source of the problem. The entertainment industry say they’re creating “culture” but what they really do is stuff like selling overpriced plushy dolls and making 11 year old girls become anorexic. Either from working in the factories that creates the dolls for basically no salary or by watching movies and tv shows that make them think that they’re fat.
In the great Sid Meiers computer game Civilization you can build Wonders of the world. One of the most powerful ones is Hollywood. With that you control all culture and media in the world. Rupert Murdoch was happy with MySpace and had no problems with their own piracy until it failed. Now he’s complainting that Google is the biggest source of piracy in the world - because he’s jealous. He wants to retain his mind control over people and clearly you’d get a more honest view of things on Wikipedia and Google than on Fox News.
Some facts (years, dates) are probably wrong in this press release. The reason is that we can’t access this information when Wikipedia is blacked out. Because of pressure from our failing competitors. We’re sorry for that.
THE PIRATE BAY, (K)2012
- 5:30 pm - Mon, Jan 9, 2012
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Only in the tritest of terms can I describe Lo’s features: I might say her hair is auburn, and her lips as red as licked red candy, the lower one prettily plump—oh, that I were a lady writer who could have her pose naked in a naked light! But instead I am lanky, big-boned, wooly-chested Humbert Humbert, with thick black eyebrows and a queer accent, and a cesspoolful of rotting monsters behind his slow boyish smile.
Lolita, by Vladimir Vladimirovich Nabokov
- 12:44 pm - Fri, Jan 6, 2012
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quickienewyork:
“I like, totally only fuck guys with huge cocks,” she said, looking me up and down.
“I can see that,” I replied.
We ordered more drinks and we kept on talking, but what was there to say? There was no witty banter that could change the situation, and there was no convincing, finagling, or…
I told Guy to stop giving my number to strange girls.
- 11:24 am - Wed, Jan 4, 2012
Purple Prose
Oh mad reason
Oh pained and woeful life
Oh morning with your sadistic light
Oh night with your endless loops of thought
Oh in between hours of tears and melancholy scrambled eggs
Oh whisper soft memories that make one’s bone’s ache
Oh shouted dreams that make them break
Oh world
Oh life
Oh lust
Oh Lolita
It started one Spring, because I suppose that is when things begin. How to make every moment of this not seem as cliche as it sounds in my head?
She was a slip of a girl who slipped into my life, my heart, my madness. Five foot small, no bigger than a thumb, certainly not. Curves her innocent eyes could never know what to do with, but I assure you I had her instruction manual from birth.
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- 10:01 pm - Mon, Jan 2, 2012
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To Do In 2012
Learn to be Cruel
Kink is a complicated thing. My own sadism is a confusing desire, since in a lot of ways my instinct is to comfort and please a partner. I do enjoy hurting people. I enjoy it a lot. It just takes a lot for me to get comfortable doing it.
In public settings, like a dungeon or party, it is a lot easier for me because the rules of engagement are often pretty well rehearsed. There are things you can do and things you can’t do and a scene is less of a psychological and emotional thing and just basic rough trade. She wants to be tied up and hit, I want to tie her up and hit her.
I enjoy that sort of thing a lot. Casual play with new and interesting people. There is a high I get from learning the intimate things about how someone reacts to pain and pleasure without knowing much else about them. It’s easy for me to flick out a knife and grab their throats and be mean, but that is different from actual cruelty.
Cruelty, both emotional and physical, is something hard to summon. When I do go there it usually scares me.
I want to work on this. I want to figure out how to be comfortable with the cruel monster inside of me. It’s been peaking out more and more, especially since I started playing with knives, which put me in a very different mindset the minute I have one in my hand.
Exploring Punishment and Dominance
I have often stated that I don’t like the idea of play as punishment. In that I mean I don’t want to spank someone for doing something wrong, I want to spank them because I like to spank them. I want to hurt someone because I get a thrill out of controlling them (via my ability to give or not give them what they want; pain, pleasure, oxygen, my attention, comfort) and because the actual physical act is hot. Hands and asses and breasts and slapping and stinging and the feedback loops of sensation.
I have been rethinking this.
Actual D/S dynamics have always been a little murky for me. I think it’s about time I demystified them. A lot of people around me, including my partner, do a lot of more formal and D/S play. There are rules, there are expectations, it isn’t a exploration of the physical and the sensational, it is something a bit more thought out and something rife with ideas about power and responsibility.
So that is something I need to look into this year. I understand that the two things are actually very different and certainly can be mutually exclusive, but I’m listing them both in one because I have similar feelings about them.
Working on Non-Erotica Writing
Publishing these erotica ebooks has been a hugely cathartic act for a variety of reasons. More than anything else it has helped me let go of a lot of writing. There is something about selling something that makes me feel so much better about letting it go and not tinkering with it. The money and the whole process is also a wonderful motivator for making me finish all of these half finished or half started stories.
Another effect is that when I sit down to write after publishing on of these ebooks I have a huge flash of inspiration for my non-erotica work. Now, my other fiction, which is far more person and something I’m far more guarded about, is still usually somewhat erotica, but it is not porn. These are the stories I want to get published in literary journals and possibly anthologies as well as the three novels I’ve been working on for the last ten years.
This year feels like the year I will make some real progress on these projects. It feels goof to write that because honestly I haven’t felt that way before about these projects. Just writing all this smut has exercised my writing muscles and so when it’s time to work on my “serious art” I feel so much more prepared.
Excelling in my Career
I don’t write much about my day job for a variety of reasons. I’m a graphic designer and blah blah blah. I actually enjoy my job a lot, even if I have mentioned the ineptitude of my boy a few times on twitter . In the last few months my job has changed a lot and it looks like in the next month or two things are going to change a lot more. It’s exciting and scary and I will have new and different responsibilities that really test my skills and know-how. Hopefully there will be more monetary compensation as well.
So work is good and money is getting better.
This year I want to up my game. Learn more about digital mediums, get my portfolio in order, etc. I have specific amounts of money I want and specific things I plan to do.
